The picture above is of a six day old rabbit being held by one of my daughters. Looking at this baby bunny sleeping got me thinking about rest and the incredibly important role it plays in my life.

As a person, I feel profoundly responsible for my behavior. Engaging with clients and the outside world comes easily to me. I love people and know that if I’m grumpy, I can just wait till I’m in a happy place to reach out—cinchy. Conducting myself as a kind human being around my family is where the real challenge begins for me.

By nature, kindness is not innate to me. Left to my own devices, I would try to control and manage everything and everyone around me to the point of hysteria. I’ve spent a great deal of time trying to learn a new way, but the reality is, behaving myself is astonishingly exhausting to me.

One mission I have, specific to raising our children, was inspired by the Hippocrates quote, “Do no harm”.  I am constantly trying to work on my own issues so I don't needlessly sabotage these darling little dirt balls.

This summer I have been sharing how depleted I feel and it was only today that I realized why this is. Being cordial and loving to the children is overwhelmingly draining for me. During the school year, I only have to keep it up hourly for single digits daily, but the summertime is different. Day in, day out benevolence feels like a fifteen hour mental marathon for my soul.

If I don’t get enough rest several things happen to me:

1. I have less patience

2. I get overwhelmed quickly

3. I feel ‘less than’

The tricky thing about all three of these is that when I’m being less patient, getting overwhelmed and/or feeling ‘less than’—I DON’T EVEN REALIZE IT’S DUE TO LACK OF SLEEP. I truly believe that everyone is going out of their way to drive me bananas. I actually conclude that my life is too complicated for me to handle. I am completely convinced that I am not doing enough, being enough, working enough, etc., etc.

While attempting to juggle work and kids this summer, my sleep needs are different. I was taught that I’m a human being, not a human doing. Giving myself permission to grab extra rest is one way I can set myself up for more patience and a clearer perspective. And, it’s a good reminder that one other person I have to be mindful not to harm is myself.

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